Saturday, August 29, 2009

See SPOT Run

The morning dawns—or not quite.

My first thought upon lifting the coffee cup to my lips, 4:30 a.m. on the 21st, the bike standing outside, shrouded in its cover and ready to go: Remind me why I am doing this?

It is, naturally, a fundamentally unanswerable question, like all the most essential ponderings about life. And not just the ones concerning riding. Suddenly it seems so pointless, just like many of my ideas when they come to the point of doing, as opposed to the point of conception. Ride a thousand miles in one shot?

The purpose—for the lark of doing it, that’s all—was to know a little whereof I hoped to speak. Google Maps graciously gave up the simple number, the mileage to Spartanburg, South Carolina, where on August 24 at 10 a.m. a hundred of the best motorcyclists would leave a hotel parking lot on the mother of all pointless quests, the twenty-fifth running of the Iron Butt Rally. For the next eleven days, at the rate of more or less a thousand miles each day, they would crisscross the country on the trail of bonus points procured with camera, flag, gas receipts, and pure inhuman drive. The pointlessness was the point.

Some things you just have to see for yourself.

With the addition of a couple hundred more miles, I could find out for myself what it felt like, this racking up of numbers for their own sake. I could find out if I was capable. I had no idea, but I was going to try for my first Saddlesore 1000, an Iron Butt Association certified ride. I would do so under the tutelage of an IBA master, who offered his signature on my initial witness form, and myriad other bits of invaluable information, as well as a SPOT tracker to memorialize the event; no one else would care, but one must have a SPOT track these days, apparently. He would stay behind me all the way, permitting me the semblance of my own ride. And more than a semblance of my own mistakes.

My hoped-for 9 p.m. bedtime somehow turned into 11:30 p.m. (and it was not just fault of last-minute preparation of the two peanut-butter-and-jelly sandwiches that, together with the six bottles of water already tidily asleep in the topcase, would form the cornerstone of the next day’s sustenance). Then it was hard to sleep. And then it was hard to stay asleep.

The sun rose as we went west, into what felt like beautiful adventure. It always feels like beautiful adventure when you’re only an hour into the ride.

That was the thing: we were going west, in order to go south. We were going west to add miles, not to go anywhere in particular. This knowledge, this South Carolina by way of Erie, Pennsylvania, struck me at once as shameful and as gleeful, like paying a good five dollars for a ride on a Ferris wheel that returns you to exactly the same place after rotating you for seven minutes.

The majority of motorcyclists do not get this; some are adamant in their belief that this is not motorcycling, as they understand it. Motorcycling is about travel. It is about hitting the turn signal when the urge strikes, lying in the grass by the wayside, being taken by serendipity, and taken in by alluring signage. About stopping as much about going. But as I was throttling down the highway, it hit me: Long distance riders do see things along the way; they just do it faster.

Indeed, I was seeing things: after six hundred miles, I was either seeing a state border sign, or I was imagining it. Where the hell was I now, Virginia or West Virginia? Did I cross just as I was inserting myself at 80 mph between the closing gap of one truck about to overtake another?

It turns out I was going too fast, which was tiring me, which made me anxious, which made my muscles ache, which caused me to take too long to stretch out at the gas stops, which then made me feel like I had to go fast once I got on the slab again.

I felt the imperative now to go, to go. My bike and I were pressed by time and desire into one item, and we needed something. I was getting it.

The miles continued to fly past. My mentor was keeping track, in a way I was unaccustomed to thinking, along lines of pure consumption. “Only two more stops,” or “This is number 5,” he would say, so I could note the stop number and the odometer reading on the back of the gas receipt, sparing me the more picturesque method I had originally conceived of, or a few minutes of searching through the previous receipts because of my inevitable inability to remember my own past, immediate or not. If not for him, and the IBA’s raison d’etre in record-keeping as crucial partner to experience, I would have been laboriously notating things (and thus attenuating effort) in a small black loose-leaf binder that had belonged to my father and for which I had previously never found other use. I wonder what he would have thought of his daughter out here on the highway; no, I know. Bemusement. And acceptance. Just as he accepted all the permutations of human endeavor, especially the most extreme and therefore the most pointless of all.

Was this the purpose of the rainbow that, around one corner, now banded the sky and made one end the goal of the road’s vanishing point? Oh, sure. Saddlesore; pot of gold: same thing.

The state lines were passing; not exactly flashing by, but here comes North Carolina, and with it the sudden piercing thought of someone who lives there, someone whom I think of often and always with an aching sadness. That made thirty miles go by. What is geography but memory painted over a map like those topographical greens and browns?

The last 80 miles were the ones I did not think I could make. Probably because I knew there were only 80 miles left to go, and I would not, could not stop now. I blinked my eyes quickly; I felt angry at the traffic this late at night. It did not seem fair to impose tailgaters on someone who was just trying to get somewhere, and stay awake doing so.

Then, suddenly, Spartanburg. And in a few miles, the glowing red letters that spelled Marriott. We made the last turn, and I was there. A thousand miles were past, gone forever. And here, arrayed in neat lines, were the hundred bikes of the truly devoted, waiting shrouded for their own start, just as mine had been earlier that day, though it seemed like in another life entirely.

I got to bed at 1:42 a.m., after nearly twenty hours awake. The next morning, watching at the meticulous multi-step tech inspection of these greatly modified machines, with their fuel cells, dual GPS, hydration systems, and shipboard packing layouts, I realized the smallness of what I had done, and the enormousness of what they were about to launch themselves into. For the next two days, the intensive preparations continued, as they had for each of these hundred riders for the months and even years before. The Big Dance was nigh. The quiet motorcycles radiated an energy of anticipation, it seemed. And finally, at ten a.m. on Monday, the signal was given, a hundred engines cranked, and something caught hold of my throat. I was held motionless as one by one they were taken by motion: in a precise ballet, each one at thirty-second intervals cut a smooth, sharp turn out of the parking lot. The riders waved, and the air filled with the sound of their horns’ final farewell. In minutes they were gone. What they left behind was a memory, heavy as air, of their having been there.

Now I am haunted. I keep thinking of them still out there, running the roads of North America, back and forth across the map of the nights between then and now. I have resumed my life, gone to my own bed night after night, but they are each alone with a machine and the miles falling away behind them. More, and, more, and more. I think I see the point.


ren said...

What you did is not small; it's exactly where all those other riders, the ones you watched leave for the bigger adventure, started. Put yourself in the perspective of yourself: you had never done this, now you have, and you are different for it. The others don't matter.

Kevin G. said...

It seems like a lifetime ago, I would be stretching to measure up to the cartoon cutout that stated " You MUST be THIS TALL to ride this ride.Summer after summer to ride the "Wild Mouse". Now my favourite ride waits in the garage.There's never a line up; and I can stay on it all day long (some days anyway).
I believe I see the point too!

Melissa Holbrook Pierson said...

Thank you, Ren, as always, for the gift of good perspective. I need it--so why is it always so hard for me to give it to myself? Like Avis, We Try Harder.

Kevin, that's a beautiful analogy. We always want to be big enough to ride. Suddenly . . . we are. Hoo-ha. Yeah, I know: you get it. That's a milestone in itself. But I think there's more to this for you too, and I'll probably see you at some 24-hour rally in the not-too-distant future.

Kevin G. said...

My bike and I may both require
a few upgrades for that day to arrive, but hopefully we'll get there.

Melissa Holbrook Pierson said...

Yes, I now have a list of upgrades I would like (auxiliary lights and custom seat--ouch!--top the list), but my car and the new engine it apparently needs will be wearing those items instead.

I know: how about a 12-hour "ride to eat" rally? That seems like something I could handle with the stock machine. You in, Kevin?

Kevin G. said...

This weekend, with getting our kids ready for a return to school, the end of our driveway seems unreachable.That's not an excuse, but rather a reason. But,most definitely,if it's " Ride to eat" " Ride to not eat" or even "Ride to end not riding", if you will be there, I'm in!

Scotty from Devon said...

Well this has inpired me to look at lands End to John O' Groats again as a project for next summer. Not a 1000 miles, more like 850 or so, but a little bit of a challenge for this 750 Guzzi rider. It must be quite special to meet those 10,000 mile people....or are they all withdrawn..reserved at that stage?

all the best, Scott Breva750

Melissa Holbrook Pierson said...

Apparently after you've just done 10,000 miles in as many days you're a little . . . tired, or something. Not that I'm likely to ever know this first-hand or anything. Then again, they do manage to go to a big banquet when the whole thing is over--I know that's what I'd be looking forward to! How's the Breva for long-distance riding? There are some long-distance crazies in the UK for sure. I bet they're good folks. If a tad weird. ;)

Scott from Devon said...


yes the Breva would be good for long distance riding but the nature of the UK means the really big miles can take more effort than in the USA (I imagine) or Australia, as unless you stick to motorways its rather stop-start because of villages, until you get to the Highlands. I suppose my last decent length ride was about 900 miles spread over 4 days, with a rest day in the middle. Not so far by US standards, but it was my choice to avoid all motorways and take the scenic routes..and I met some great people and had a wonderful time. The Breva is a gem of a bike, but a hidden gem. Its not even so well appreciated on Guzzi forums sometimes with its 50hp...but I LOVE mine, and after 5 years, I will ride it until it won't go no more. :-)